How long will this wait last? I’ve heard about “the wait”. I’ve read that its hard. I’ve read that its unpredictable. I’ve read that it will break you and rebuild you. Its all true. I’ve heard that it will be worth it. I choose to believe that. Where are you my child? I’ve held the…
Read MoreWe’ve hit a road block. A small one that could be the big one. Somethings come up in our paperwork. Something we didn’t see coming but that something could be the end of our Haitian dreams. Each country is so particular in what they will and won’t allow, who they will approve and reject. I’m…
Read MoreThursday, December 1st 2016. We can look to our future with courage because our future is Christ. -she reads truth advent study 2016 I’m having a hard time reconciling the idea that all of those years as a child spent pretending that I had a black adopted son were actually holy. It’s a weird concept…
Read MoreIt’s funny how this feels exactly the same and completely different. It’s deciding to have more children. Point blank those are the logistics. Of course there is more and a massive emotional component. But at the ground floor, it’s if we want and can we raise more kids? I feel like we are having conversations…
Read MoreI hugged my first piece of clothing today. I was doing laundry and somehow one of Bo’s old fleece jackets was in the dryer. I noticed how small it was and read the tag, it said 18-24 months. I reached for the goodwill bin where I toss all of our too small clothes and stopped…
Read MoreMarch 21, 2016. “Do not let me be scared out of your will” That is me right now. It’s not that I think brining home more children is outside of Gods will for us, it’s just paralyzingly terrifying. Yesterday, on the first Day of Spring 2016, I sent an inquiry email to an adoption agency. I…
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