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Death of a Dream

By Sarah Delamarter / May 16, 2017 /

I have always assumed that there would be one more. That we had one more child coming our way. Always.  Why not? I remember the day that we left the hospital with our 3rd baby and we took the always exciting family photo outside of the hospital before we headed home as a family of… Continue reading →

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The Wait.

By Sarah Delamarter / April 11, 2017 /

How long will this wait last? I’ve heard about “the wait”. I’ve read that its hard. I’ve read that its unpredictable. I’ve read that it will break you and rebuild you. Its all true. I’ve heard that it will be worth it. I choose to believe that. Where are you my child? I’ve held the…

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Knocked Sideways- Resolution-ish. 

By Sarah Delamarter / March 26, 2017 /

Today I woke up feeling encouraged. With this paperwork from Haiti situation, I have been so knocked sideways by how unexpected it was and the thought that an entire country could tell me that we are not a fit enough family to raise one of their own, man that hurts. I’ve been mad. Sad. Angry.…

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Knocked Sideways Part 1

By Sarah Delamarter / March 21, 2017 /

We’ve hit a road block. A small one that could be the big one. Somethings come up in our paperwork. Something we didn’t see coming but that something could be the end of our Haitian dreams. Each country is so particular in what they will and won’t allow, who they will approve and reject. I’m…

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By Sarah Delamarter / March 21, 2017 /

Thursday, December 1st 2016.  We can look to our future with courage because our future is Christ.  -she reads truth advent study 2016  I’m having a hard time reconciling the idea that all of those years as a child spent pretending that I had a black adopted son were actually holy. It’s a weird concept…

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I hugged his jacket 

By Sarah Delamarter / March 21, 2017 /

I hugged my first piece of clothing today. I was doing laundry and somehow one of Bo’s old fleece jackets was in the dryer. I noticed how small it was and read the tag, it said 18-24 months. I reached for the goodwill bin where I toss all of our too small clothes and stopped…

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Do Not Let Me Be Scared Out Of Your Will. 

By Sarah Delamarter / February 2, 2017 /

March 21, 2016. “Do not let me be scared out of your will” That is me right now. It’s not that I think brining home more children is outside of Gods will for us, it’s just paralyzingly terrifying. Yesterday, on the first Day of Spring 2016, I sent an inquiry email to an adoption agency. I…

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