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Death of a Dream

By Sarah Delamarter / May 16, 2017 /

I have always assumed that there would be one more. That we had one more child coming our way. Always.  Why not? I remember the day that we left the hospital with our 3rd baby and we took the always exciting family photo outside of the hospital before we headed home as a family of… Continue reading →

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The Wait.

By Sarah Delamarter / April 11, 2017 /

How long will this wait last? I’ve heard about “the wait”. I’ve read that its hard. I’ve read that its unpredictable. I’ve read that it will break you and rebuild you. Its all true. I’ve heard that it will be worth it. I choose to believe that. Where are you my child? I’ve held the…

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Knocked Sideways- Resolution-ish. 

By Sarah Delamarter / March 26, 2017 /

Today I woke up feeling encouraged. With this paperwork from Haiti situation, I have been so knocked sideways by how unexpected it was and the thought that an entire country could tell me that we are not a fit enough family to raise one of their own, man that hurts. I’ve been mad. Sad. Angry.…

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Knocked Sideways Part 1

By Sarah Delamarter / March 21, 2017 /

We’ve hit a road block. A small one that could be the big one. Somethings come up in our paperwork. Something we didn’t see coming but that something could be the end of our Haitian dreams. Each country is so particular in what they will and won’t allow, who they will approve and reject. I’m…

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By Sarah Delamarter / March 21, 2017 /

Thursday, December 1st 2016.  We can look to our future with courage because our future is Christ.  -she reads truth advent study 2016  I’m having a hard time reconciling the idea that all of those years as a child spent pretending that I had a black adopted son were actually holy. It’s a weird concept…

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Stalemate 

By Sarah Delamarter / March 21, 2017 /

I spend a good piece of my morning quiet time praying for clarity on our adoption, clear answers on Gods calling for us in this area, praying against the spirit of confusion. Then I checked my Instagram like I always do and this is one of the first posts that shows up.    Our next…

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If not us, then who? 

By Sarah Delamarter / March 21, 2017 /

If not us then who?  I asked myself this question for years.  I said it out loud to God  in July in 2015.   If not us the who will raise a pair of parent less children? Who will teach them about Jesus and a mothers love?  If not us then who?  I have to…

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It feels exactly the same and completely different. 

By Sarah Delamarter / March 21, 2017 /

It’s funny how this feels exactly the same and completely different. It’s deciding to have more children. Point blank those are the logistics. Of course there is more and a massive emotional component. But at the ground floor, it’s if we want and can we raise more kids? I feel like we are having conversations…

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4:30 on October 30th

By Sarah Delamarter / March 21, 2017 /

At 4:30 pm on October 30, 2016 I submitted our official application to adopt from Haiti to All Gods Children International.   Hopefully we will hear back rather quickly about whether or not we can pursue the twins we saw online.   Knowing that if they are ours, they are already ours. God knows. We…

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I hugged his jacket 

By Sarah Delamarter / March 21, 2017 /

I hugged my first piece of clothing today. I was doing laundry and somehow one of Bo’s old fleece jackets was in the dryer. I noticed how small it was and read the tag, it said 18-24 months. I reached for the goodwill bin where I toss all of our too small clothes and stopped…

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