We’ve hit a road block. A small one that could be the big one. Somethings come up in our paperwork. Something we didn’t see coming but that something could be the end of our Haitian dreams. Each country is so particular in what they will and won’t allow, who they will approve and reject. I’m…
Read MoreThursday, December 1st 2016. We can look to our future with courage because our future is Christ. -she reads truth advent study 2016 I’m having a hard time reconciling the idea that all of those years as a child spent pretending that I had a black adopted son were actually holy. It’s a weird concept…
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If not us then who? I asked myself this question for years. I said it out loud to God in July in 2015. If not us the who will raise a pair of parent less children? Who will teach them about Jesus and a mothers love? If not us then who? I have to…
Read MoreIt’s funny how this feels exactly the same and completely different. It’s deciding to have more children. Point blank those are the logistics. Of course there is more and a massive emotional component. But at the ground floor, it’s if we want and can we raise more kids? I feel like we are having conversations…
Read MoreAt 4:30 pm on October 30, 2016 I submitted our official application to adopt from Haiti to All Gods Children International. Hopefully we will hear back rather quickly about whether or not we can pursue the twins we saw online. Knowing that if they are ours, they are already ours. God knows. We…
Read MoreApril 16, 2916 and I’m scared. Adoption is the biggest ask of Fair God has ever asked if me. And I’m scared. I’m scared that I’m not really hearing Gods voice. I’m scared that I will ruin my family. I’m scared that I will have too many kids and not be the great mother I…
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I hugged my first piece of clothing today. I was doing laundry and somehow one of Bo’s old fleece jackets was in the dryer. I noticed how small it was and read the tag, it said 18-24 months. I reached for the goodwill bin where I toss all of our too small clothes and stopped…
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Just finished the Home Study phone call to run though everything…. holy overwhelmed. It’s so much information and paperwork. I keep saying “holy homestudy!” And maybe this actually is holy? Maybe this hard because Gods will is so often hard? Maybe this hurts and we delve into our deepest pieces of our lives because the…
Read MoreMarch 21, 2016. “Do not let me be scared out of your will” That is me right now. It’s not that I think brining home more children is outside of Gods will for us, it’s just paralyzingly terrifying. Yesterday, on the first Day of Spring 2016, I sent an inquiry email to an adoption agency. I…
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