How long will this wait last?
I’ve heard about “the wait”. I’ve read that its hard. I’ve read that its unpredictable. I’ve read that it will break you and rebuild you.
Its all true.
I’ve heard that it will be worth it.
I choose to believe that.
Where are you my child?
I’ve held the dream of you in my heart for nearly as long as I can remember. I’ve been pouring out prayers, asking God to guide us, crying over the idea of you as its ebbed and flowed. One month it seemed like we were on the path to you and then the next month we would think that we were wrong, not on the right path at all.
Countless hours I have prayed over the last 3 1/2 years about adopting. Prayed for me, prayed for my husband, for our children. Is this right for our family? Where would you have us look to find our child? How will are first three children adjust to a new sibling?
Eventually, God comforted me with the idea that if he’s calling me he’s also calling my family, my children.
Three and half months now we have been on the official road, delved deep into the paperwork process that is Adoption. Still, we don’t know where you are? We thought that you were in Haiti. Yet, what if Haiti isn’t working out well because God is leading us somewhere different?
So now, maybe, we are wondering if you are actually here in our own country growing inside the womb of a courageous and loving birth mom
Wherever you are my child I long for you.
I also know that maybe you will never come. I know that that happens too and perhaps I will long for you for the rest of my life.
I want you to know my voice and the feel of my hands as I comfort your tears. I want you to know your sisters and brother and how much they are wanting to have you here to play with. I want you to know your Daddy and how he will make you laugh and challenge you in your school work.
I want you, but we are stuck in “the wait.”
The never-ending, unpredictable, no idea what’s coming next wait.
3 1/2 years + 3 1/2 months+ a lifetime in my heart= our wait for you, you deeply wanted and loved child.
While we wait for you we will wait upon the Lord. Trusting that his timeline is the perfect one for you and for your siblings and for this family.
” But those who wait upon the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they all walk and not faint”