Yesterday I had an epiphany.
When God instructs us to “wait on the Lord” he really means just wait.
I have always heard preachers toss in the phrase “wait upon the Lord” or I’ve sung it in hymns at various services. But it wasn’t until I was a 29 year old non-working non-children having wife of six months I finally realized what He was saying.
This last month has been a month of emotional change for me. I am ready to make some changes and move forward in my life and the question has been “In what direction Lord?” So I have been fervently praying and trying to seek God’s guidance for this next stage in my life and trying to be all full of patience, self control, goodness…yada yada yada. And truth be told I’m sick of it! I am ready for something, anything to happen.
Yesterday I spent some time literally on my knees with tears in my eyes asking God what I should be doing with myself these days and even offering up the spirit filled whine of “God I’m bored here. What in the world is going on? When can I expect to hear from you about which of these steps to take?”
To which God replied “Wait upon the Lord, Sarah. I want you to wait.”
My eyes shot open and I said aloud to my two dogs “Oh that’s what that means.”
Then I realized what had happened. I have spent several months asking God to make me patient….and now he’s letting me have my way and letting me learn to be patient.
So now, I wait.
“God’s timing may seem slow, but he is never late.”